Dealing with Depression Thread: an even safer place than the original

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  1. MK 3rds

    MK 3rds Dork

    I thought this thread was helpful so I'm bringing it back.


    Buddy of mine from college tried to kill himself last week. Went thru a very bad breakup, apparently decided to kill himself to get back at his ex. It's a messed up situation. He posted this long thing on Facebook about why. I get texted asking if I know where he lives now, they call the local cops, who find him before he does anything and put him in 72-hr suicide watch. I'm waiting for updates now.
     
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  2. NoleNBlue

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    Hope it's not down here. He'd be out at shift change. Drives me nuts when it's folks who legit need help, not just the hungry transients who know the buzzwords.
     
  3. MK 3rds

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    They seem to be handling it right. His parents were contacted as well.
     
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  4. FightingTiger

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    I shall call this thread home.
     
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  5. Dirt Dirt McGirt

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    Been doing better. Generally happier now, doing more social stuff, ended a 6-year relationship that was adding to the stress and anxiety and am dealing with it pretty well. There's always light at the end of the tunnel, depression e-bros.

    Started reading the Feeling Good Handbook too which is helping.
     
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  6. FightingTiger

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    I'm also starting to find a little relief. Having my medicine finally straightened out. Also started writing some which has helped as well just to help let some stuff out.
     
  7. FightingTiger

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    any suggestions on getting sleep again? I'm off my klonipan now and have not had a good night sleep in several days.
     
  8. MORBO!

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    Present.

    Also on a side note: fuck that god damn pilot who flew the plane into the mountain for worsening the stigma of depression and mental illness. Now all these people think that anyone who is going through a tough time is a homicidal shithead.
     
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  9. RonBurgundy

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    Journal, counseling, and biofeedback.
     
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  10. Tigerdb2

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    Any updates? I've considered picking up a few books focusing on improving mindset and things like that.

    I have no real problems, most of my issue stems from a girl, I think. I just can't get back to who I was/am recently. I don't enjoy things and I just dread things like work more than I ever have. I've never really had issues like this until about a year ago and it's come and gone but I feel it coming back on again. No suicidal thoughts or anything but I'm just genuinely unhappy. It perpetuates itself too because I can't read or try to better myself because it's such a distracting feeling and then I feel shitty about that, too.

    Very mild stuff but I figured you wonderful people may have some insight. "Quit being a little bitch" has only gotten me so far, as you might imagine
     
  11. JohnnyChimpo

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    Doc started me on Adderall xr 10 mg 1.5 weeks ago (pretty mild dose)... Pretty good so far, considering I definitely have some ADD tendencies I can actually get shit done at work. Sometimes makes anxiety a little worse but i like being able to get stuff done efficiently and I find my desk and life in general is much more organized. Would recommend if you think you might have some ADD tendencies and also suffer from anxiety/depression.
     
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  12. Tigerdb2

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    I absolutely love adderall (I drink 500mg+ caffeine daily, so amphetamines overall i guess). I've never taken it to go out or anything like that but I really enjoy taking it to try and get things done. That being said, it scares the shit out of me. I feel like i'd get hooked on it pretty quickly.
     
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  13. JohnnyChimpo

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    I thought the same thing but as long as you just take the recommended dosage you'll be fine
     
  14. Tigerdb2

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    As obvious is this statement is, it was oddly comforting.

    Was it prescribed purely for the ADD symptoms or was it partially to help with motivation and related aspects of depression?
     
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  15. MORBO!

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    I've always thought I would do really well with Adderall, but I'm really worried that it will make my anxiety about a thousand times worse.
     
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  16. JohnnyChimpo

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    you can always give it a try and see... I mean there are definitely days when it makes my anxiety worse but I'm trying to work through that .... think it also helps me concentrate while meditating and such
     
  17. hipsterjoe

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    My girlfriend is a depressed alcoholic who is refusing to do anything about it. After over a year of trying to get her to treat the issue, I couldn't take anymore. I'm really tired of the lying and manipulation and the immaturity so I broke it off over the weekend
     
  18. b0ne5

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    I was very depressed after going through some traumatic and life changing shit when I was 20-21 so I will continue to monitor this thread and attempt to help as much as possible. Depression is terrible and very hard for many people to understand.
     
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  19. Tigerdb2

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    It's definitely a mindfuck for someone who's never had any history of it and doesn't really know how or why it's happening.
     
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  20. MORBO!

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    My anxiety is pretty much all work related. Whenever I start to feel behind, or realize I screwed something up at work, I start to spiral. Of course, as a lawyer, this means that I have particular cases/people/partners/etc. that are just a total trigger for me.

    I just got an e-mail from a partner that is a trigger for me, on a case that is a trigger for me. I'm out of the office at a mediation, and all I can think about right now is "I DON'T FUCKING CARE ABOUT THIS NEGOTIATION, I AM GOING TO GET FIIIIIIIIRRRRRREEEEEDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
     
  21. b0ne5

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    I work at a small firm with 3 lawyers. The owner is a good friend of mine that understands how shitty it is trying to learn to be a lawyer right out of school so it's been a pretty stress free and smooth transition for me so far. I have other friends that make 2-3 times what I do right out of school but they work 70 hours a week and are too stressed to enjoy life most of the time.
     
  22. osuteke2

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    Self medicating and alcohol is a depressant. It's a no win battle.
     
  23. osuteke2

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    I've had several concussions in my life and deal with general anxiety/panic attacks and depression. I've been on Paxil for 12 years and doesn't work anymore. I stay away from benzos so I don't know what to take.
     
  24. naztay

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    I used to have a serious coffee problem that stemmed from having a high stress job and the associated 4 days a week of travel. Got a Focalin Rx a little over a month ago have have cut my caffeine intake drastically. Also, I get shit done at work and my stress level is way down. :feelsgoodman:
     
  25. Tigerdb2

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    What type of associated sides does it have? I'm an incredibly difficult person w out caffeine. Quitting would take everything I have but I really want to
     
  26. MORBO!

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    I just love coffee so damn much, but I think it's more the ritual of it, the taste of it, etc. I don't think the caffeine is really what does it for me. I could probably switch to decaf if I was still in a situation where I had enough energy to get by without the regular.
     
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  27. naztay

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    I haven't noticed anything too serious, I had a little trouble sleeping at first but have gotten over that and my appetite is a little lower when I take it. The most noticeable side effect is that I can get tunnel vision and be a real dick to anyone that tries to distract me from whatever I'm working on.
     
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  28. hipsterjoe

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    yeah it's been a pretty difficult time. my mom is a recovering alcoholic and I had to deal with the ugliness a lot when I was a kid, so I really don't want to do it again as an adult. I'm only able to help her so much... so until she decides to grow up and help herself there really isn't a place for her in my life.
     
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  29. hipsterjoe

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    i think the worst part for me is the guilt that I feel for doing it... I keep trying to reassure myself that I'm not the bad guy and I didn't do anything wrong and it's her that made the choice for me
     
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  30. Tigerdb2

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    Yeah I still haven't gone to talk to anyone yet. I really don't want to do that to my mother because I know she will worry herself to death and I'm absolutely not in any danger, just not happy. This seems like something I may look into and bring up should I ever decide i need the help. Appreciate the help
     
  31. Dirt Dirt McGirt

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    Unfortunately I haven't picked it up since that post, whoops

    I hear you about not really enjoying things. You seeing anyone for help or on meds at all?
     
  32. Tigerdb2

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    No meds or professional help just yet. If I'm feeling it at home I usually smoke some weed and eat sushi. Work triggers it pretty hard even though I only have to suck it up for another 3 months (leaving for grad school) but i'm constantly drinking coffee or energy drinks. I'd prefer to stop both but for now they feel pretty harmless. Honestly, they've always been part of my life but the amount and frequency has gone up.

    I'd prefer not to see someone because it would scare my mother to death and I don't think it's a big deal, at this point. What scares me the most is just how different it's made me. Things that people identify me by are becoming less pleasurable and noticeable. Confidence? What confidence. That kind of shit. I don't know. It's been about a year with some ups and downs but I'm just getting around to acknowledging that something isn't right.
     
  33. Dirt Dirt McGirt

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    The Feeling Good Handbook is supposed to help a lot, I'd start with that if you don't want to try professional help yet. Don't worry about what your mother would think, if you think seeing someone would help, and it probably would, just do it. It's good that you've acknowledged that something is off.
     
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  34. tandin

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    I've been really struggling to manage my depression for about 6 weeks now. Over-drinking weekly, becoming exceptionally lonely and instead of speaking with people who have been able to help in the past I hole up in hotels (this makes no sense), spending money indiscriminately on things I hope will make me happy, and occasional bouts of suicidal thoughts sober and drunk.

    I'm not really sure exactly what brought it on, my most recent gf was great at managing me and we broke up, my best friend is leaving the state, it's the most stressful time of year at work (a two month work trip where I am not at my home), and I hurt my knee so I havent been able to exercise like I was when I was doing well last year.

    I get to go home this weekend though, and I plan on drying out when I get there.
     
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  35. MORBO!

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    Hanging in there, bud. Sounds like you have a lot of stressors kicking around right now that will get better with a little time and getting back into your routine.
     
  36. JonathanCoachman

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    The original thread wasn't a safe place. I mentioned taking a drug in here one time and months later dbl used it against me in some random thread. Was a pretty shitty thing of him to do IMO.
     
  37. h.e.pennypacker

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    We are same. However, she's started working on herself and we're still talking. I actually did not know she was abusing alcohol, somehow. She revealed this to me post-breakup (and to her mom and closest friends). Most importantly, she finally scheduled appointments with a therapist.

    I definitely could have used some advice on how to be with someone with depression, because there were certainly things I handled poorly/incorrectly.
     
  38. h.e.pennypacker

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    I know this feel :(
     
  39. hipsterjoe

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    The key for me was to remember that I can be supportive of her while she figures her shit out, but I can't fix her and I can't deal with her problems. They aren't for me to deal with.
     
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  40. h.e.pennypacker

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    I mean, I certainly didn't mind being a support system for her. I did that gladly. I don't mind helping her tackle her problems, either. Everyone's depression/anxiety looks different. Hers happened to take her to some pretty manic states where I would become a target, and it led to some really shitty fights/arguments (where I would keep my cool, but she would launch the worst shit anyone's ever said to me). Eventually, I couldn't take it anymore and was extremely bitter that she wasn't doing anything to improve herself. Happy to see she's aware of what happened, and is taking the appropriate steps. Hope it works out for you.
     
  41. MORBO!

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    Seriously? What the fuck...
     
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  42. Cornfed Buffalo

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    What a fucking tool
     
  43. john fairfax

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    easy to say if you're new to it.

    every weekend I tell myself I wont take my vyvanse. By noon, I'm tired of the withdrawal and take it instead of being miserable.
     
  44. john fairfax

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    Yeah I have ADHD and caffeine does nothing for me. I just like the taste and the heat.
     
  45. JohnnyChimpo

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    I know nothing about this stuff but isn't vyvanse pretty strong (comes in high dosages?) I've pretty much resigned myself to never go above 10 or 20 mg of xr at this point
     
  46. Tigerdb2

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    Yeah that's the kind of stuff that concerns me. I honestly wanted an adderall rx for grad school anyway but it worries me. I didn't start by drinking upwards of a gram of caffeine but I'm here now. I used to be extremely disciplined in every facet of my life but now I just don't trust myself w something like adderall.
     
  47. JohnnyChimpo

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    if you're taking adderall you'll want to switch to decaf. I've made that mistake and i end up so anxious i can't sit still
     
  48. Tigerdb2

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    I actually really like drinking my energy drinks with adderall. I get so much accomplished. I do acknowledge that I'm probably playing with fire so, yeah, if I ever get consistent with adderall, caffeine would need to go
     
  49. MORBO!

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    Bruh...STAHP
     
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  50. Tigerdb2

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    Rare, rare occasions. Once, maybe twice a month. You're definitely right, though.

    I'm trying to work on it