The addiction thread: A safe place for questions or advice or really anything

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  1. Fudd VanVleet

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    I'm hanging in there, but every minute feels like a hour and every hour feels like a day.

    I have to prep today for a colonoscopy before rehab will admit me.
     
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  2. A Black person

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    Why do you need a colonoscopy before rehab?
     
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  3. Fudd VanVleet

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    Because I haven't taken a solid shit and have lost 40 pounds in a month.
     
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  4. A Black person

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    Ahhh gotcha.
     
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  5. devine

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    Good luck Fudd stay strong man
     
  6. Prospector

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    That's shitty
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    My initial thought was to look for drugs, 40 pounds in a month sounds very serious. Hope your body wasn't shutting down and it is only attributed to you drug use.
    As long as you wake up you have an opportunity to heal and get Well!
     
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  7. Fudd VanVleet

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    I won't let you down this time.
     
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  8. Bill the Butcher

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    Good luck to you, man.

    What do you do all day when you're on fentanyl? Do you work or leave your place? Is it just a chase the dragon and sit around nodding all day at your place? Playing video games?

    The encounters I have had with that shit have been people walking around looking for shit to get into. These guys don't have the financial support you do, so I dont know if it's boredom, the drug or just looking for something for their next buy.

    Generally curious because the people I run into are like zombies, just generally street people who can't really tell me anything of use.
     
  9. Fudd VanVleet

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    I wasn't even getting high after the first couple weeks, it only made me feel normal after that. I fooled my parents, friends, doctors, and girlfriend. You would have had no idea that I was abusing drugs.
     
  10. Fudd VanVleet

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    But as for what I've been doing for the past month: pretty much just writhing around in pain on my bed or couch.

    Anxiety through the roof, restless, no concentration, no appetite, sleep problems.

    I can't watch TV or movies because I can't concentrate. I have watched Band of Brothers and gone to see a couple of movies, but other than that all I can really do is listen to music.
     
  11. Prospector

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    When are you going to rehab?
     
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  12. Fudd VanVleet

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    I have my colonoscopy tomorrow and then we are driving from NYC to CT on Tuesday.
     
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  13. Bill the Butcher

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    I was under the assumption once you hit a point of it not getting you high anymore you OD'ed and that was it, the drug is just that potent ll amounts. I didn't think it was like other shit like Crack or whatever when you smoke it and you're only high for a minute.

    Most of the people in my area aren't even aware they are taking fentanyl. Their pills or heroin is cut with it and they are fucked up beyond belief.

    Thanks for the info. Anyone that is brave enough to face that monster should get all the support they need. I was just thinking I hadn't seen you post in a while and was hoping it wasn't the worst.
     
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  14. Prospector

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    Focus on getting to Tuesday
     
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  15. Jake Scott

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    Good luck Fudd.

    My brother just hit 30 days in rehab. I pray every day he doesn't quit.
     
  16. Capstone 88

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    Good luck, Fudd
     
  17. Pharm

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    yeah i weighed 134 lbs in peak use, now weigh 175 down from 182. not good for your body at all. what was weird in rehab is all the alcoholics lost weight while most drug users gained weight.
     
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  18. NoNatty

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    Granted I spent a year in rehab the first time, but I put on 60 lbs from clean date to 1 year sober.
     
  19. Redav

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    Good luck Fudd. Hope you can find a way out. Sounds like a tough battle
     
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  20. Fudd VanVleet

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    I think I got it this time. I've never had a positive attitude and been so receptive to help.
     
  21. Daniel Ocean

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    And I was worried I was taking too much ibuprofen
     
  22. Fudd VanVleet

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    [​IMG]
     
  23. Prospector

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    Attitude is huge!
     
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  24. TDCD

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    Did you ever meet up with Jason Genova?
     
  25. Fudd VanVleet

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    I talk to him on a regular basis.
     
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  26. Bill the Butcher

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    Wait, is this serious? I've seen the videos on YouTube. That's an act, right?
     
  27. Fudd VanVleet

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    I can assure you it's not an act.
     
  28. Where Eagles Dare

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    Get well, war eagle brother
     
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  29. Fudd VanVleet

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    I'll see you guys in 5-6 weeks.

    Thank you so much for the support.
     
  30. TC

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    I just completed 60 days sober AMA
     
  31. Prospector

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    Attitude! The people you are going to be working w are there to help You! Good luck
    You get better and sober one day one hour one minute at a time.
     
  32. Pharm

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    Today marks 1 year sober, man what a difference a year can make. Just have to keep it up.
     
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  33. Baron

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    congrats! keep it going!
     
  34. TrustyPatches

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    Fucking A man! Awesome job
     
  35. Tony Ray Bans

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    Fuck yeah PharmDNole !! Nice job man keep it up!
     
  36. Daniel Ocean

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    Happy birthday congrats and good for you
     
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  37. Fudd VanVleet

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    Had 2 months on the 22nd. I was withdrawing for 7 weeks. I have severe brain damage. I've been in treatment for 35 days and I am leaving this facility next Wednesday to go to a 90 day program in New Haven.
     
  38. TC

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    What does this mean?
     
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  39. Fudd VanVleet

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    I had 8 hours of psychological testing and they were able to deduce that I have brain damage comparable to a severe concussion. I don't remember years of my life.
     
  40. TC

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    Damn son. Good news is what matters now is the present and future, not the past
     
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  41. TrustyPatches

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    I know this may end up being a stupid question, but is it reparable?
     
  42. Fudd VanVleet

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    They tell me it's reparable.

    I just want my fucking Spotify account. It's so fucking boring here.
     
  43. TC

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    It's prob extra boring coming off years of getting fucked up...sobriety isn't that bad when you're used to it but it can pale in comparison at first
     
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  44. devine

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    Keep up the good fight Fudd
     
  45. Marbles

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    Damn I struggled this morning with my recovery but I hung in there. Shit I just wanted to let everything go but I got a fiance and good career I've started and I just had to hold tight for a little bit a get through it. It was rocky this morning.
     
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  46. Daniel Ocean

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    Good luck. But, I guess we now understand why you are a Rutgers fan.
     
  47. NoNatty

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  48. Pharm

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    Yeah, i hate when people argue it is just a bad choice, yes i agree the initial decision to use is choice, but not everyone is predisposed to get addicted. Really interesting to see where they get in the future.
     
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  49. Daniel Ocean

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    I will admit I used to think it was a choice. That it was mental weakness. I am not that dumb anymore. I know I can control my drinking but it takes a bunch of other shit to help me do it but I know if I'd ever tried and truly addicting I'd have been fucked.
     
  50. Tony Ray Bans

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    I used to have this argument all the time. People feel so much better about themselves when they feel like they accomplished something by not becoming an addict/can look down on someone who is.